[this pic is for you, mimi. reminds me of your bracelets we always played with!]
but it hasn't.
my insecurities are heightened (motherhood) and my sleep is lacking.
we're in a little hotel room. no big deal. it really isn't.
[in the hallway, waiting on the kids to fall asleep.]
i told my mom that i need a vacation away from myself. and that all i do is fail and fail and fail.
she said "ummm. that's the point, you can't do it."
there's a thought.
she ended the conversation with an "i love you and you are NOT a perfect mom and NOBODY is and that's why we need a savior."
i've been asking God why this week is so hard for me. maybe i just need to realize some things.
i'll start with my NEED.
at first i thought it was need for quiet time and space.
no, maybe it's sunshine.
never mind how about reading a good book.
or maybe 2 hotel rooms.
how about chats with other moms.
i had it all wrong. i need a savior.
sounds cheesy, but it's never been more real to me.